Lost 10lbs in a week.
I had a dream I was kissing her. It was so fucking real.
Reasons to dye your hair bright and unnatural colors
- Because you wanna
- Being punk rock
- Looking hella cute
- Small children’s reactions
It’s so funny how she can hurt you
so badly. & her life just goes on. & she can be happy. & you watch on wondering what the fuck you did to have this happen. Yeah, you can make yourself happy. Eventually. After the hurt dissipates. But she is happy now.
Doing things that you wanted to do with her with someone else. & all you can do is wait for it to stop hurting. & wait to remember what it was like to breathe without her. forget what it felt like to fall asleep next to her. forget the anticipation of seeing her. for her smile to fade away. & keep telling yourself that jealousy isn’t fitting. & you probably wouldn’t have really had any fun going on adventures with her. or kissing her in the rain. or any of the hundreds of things she promised you could do together. forget she tasted like hope. forget it all.
you were never gonna get the girl.
you were never gonna get the happy ending.