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43rd & longing
I wish I saw you yesterday. I keep imaging what it would be like even though you stopped loving me years ago, if you ever did at all. Wonderful actress, memorized all your lines. Addictive, kept me coming back. I think of you and my blood rushes. I haven’t had a fix in such a long time. Painful really. Disconnect. & you would have been beautiful to me, even now, in spite of my love. of him. Do you know that? No. Would you care today about my pathetic attempt to capsure all my fleeting feelings for you in a missive, an open ended rambling of emotion I have carried this flame for you far too long, stop weighing me down I. Enough of you. Enough now. GIVE ME CLOSURE. And I didn’t see you. Curls captured in a loose ponytail, gathered at the nape of your delicate neck that I want to touch, caress…no. I don’t need a fix. I don’t need this game. I didn’t see you & I never will. Illusive girl with the cheshire grin.
